I feel my world crashing down around me. I feel the heat of the fire in my mind. It’s my own personal hell, and I’m doing my best to just get out of it. To take a break from it. To make myself better.
I don’t want to cry. I don’t want to worry. I don’t want to feel the emotions that are swirling around in my chest as I sit back and think about things. That’s another thing I don’t wanna do.
I’m not sure what goes on. I try not to let things get in the way. But every once in a while, I feel as though I just fell into a pit where I’m stuck. It takes forever to get out. And once I brush the dust off, and get back to what I was doing, it happens again.
My problems have been lingering in my head for days now. Insecure about myself and doubting my relationships with my friends. Worrying about things out of my control. Worrying in general, in all honesty.
I’m tired. And to just take all of that and just throw it out of my mind would be perfect. To just have 5 minutes of peace in my head. To just have 5 minutes where I don’t feel like I do. Oh how amazing that would be.
-Ash
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